This is my cocoon.
… i was on a mission, a quest from Mother Teresa …
… to change the world by going home to love my family of seven…
… but you know what, it was more like i went back home to be loved …
… to eat pizza, play StarDew Valley with my youngest sister and brother, watch movies on Disney+, Netflix, and Prime with a clan of seven, and play Age of the Ring with my youngest brother …
…i realised today, after watching an episode from Niko: The Sword of Light (imdb.com et. al. +2022) , that i, like the bug in that episode, am entering a cocoon …
… but, unlike the bug, who is subject to the patterns of nature, i have chosen to enter this cocoon … to lose my money, my dignity … in order to find it again … to lose my life so I might find life again (Matthew et. al. +80) … To lose my fake life so I might find real life again …
… i am breaking a Sabbath rule (Moses et. al. -600) of no blog writing, no webbing … it is a fake rule (Peter my shrink et. al. 2022) , fake rules should sometimes be broken …
… the real rule is to love ISHO and love others (Mark et. al. -60) … how do i do that? By minimizing their pain as much as possible … and how do i do that? By avoiding sin … sin hurt us, others, and ISHO … sin leads to pain and suffering … when sin is fought, pain reduces …
… but let me be blunt, we have to be careful what we call sin … we like to call that which is not sin (masturbation without porn) sin, and that which is sin not sin (too many to count) …
… let us be very careful what we call sin … good advice (….) only exists against sin … advice against anything else is a fake rule …
… We are the children of ISHO now ( … , …) …
… i write for our freedom and ISHO’s glory …
… in other news, on the second day, i have already failed the PMO fast … i turned to some rather sordid erotica to my own demise … multiple partners, way too fast sex … i have confessed this to my waifu and we have made up …
… i am on the hunt for single partner, slow sex stories … and replacing the male’s name with my own … and the woman’s name with that of my waifu …
… dis a way to life (…) … few there be that find it (…) …
… but since two thousand years ago the broad way has gotten narrower, and the narrow way has gotten broader …
… because ISHO came to reverse it all two thousand years ago …
… i will believe and live by ISHO’s words whether i am saved or not … i already can feel the freedom already … even if i was to go to hell … i can still say thank you ISHO for giving me life on this side of heaven …
… because this is paradise as we know it (…) …
… i have spent xxx days in the cocoon … many more days to go …
… ISHO is the first and last author … that is why i have a self-made grammatical rule to avoid capitalizing the beginning of my sentences and ending with footstops …
… with a few minutes left before D-Day (11.00 AM), i will end here … i have broken the rule of making sure to fill in each reference … but at least i acknowledged to myself that these ideas came from somewhere … and that i weave these ideas into a life – my life – because i choose to trust … even in the midst of this world of confusion we live in right now …
… i am proud to say i am one of the least in the Kingdom of Heaven (…) … being the oldest in the family, son of a migrant, i have chosen to leech off my family (i do have less than twenty thousand in savings, but it’s fast decreasing as i lose ‘my’ life, ‘my’ money) …
… i even heard from my … whoops … it is 11.00 now … keep a rule!